All I Want for Christmas// 我想要的聖誕禮物
What does the Christmas season bring to mind for you? Our Editor Rachel T shares her dreams about all she ever wanted for Christmas. 聖誕節會令你想起甚麼呢？篇者Rachel T與大家分享她一件夢寐以求的聖誕禮物。
It’s Christmas again, and it’s time for me to take out my winter clothing to prepare for the cold season! Growing up in tropical Malaysia, my dream as a little girl was to have a white Christmas where I would wear knitted scarves, hats and gloves. As I was the youngest in my family, I would always be left behind as my sister and my cousins leave Malaysia for their studies or even for vacation.
My grandmother had 5 granddaughters. Whenever one leaves for studies, she would knit scarves, hats and sweaters for them. Grandma knitted the most beautiful accessories and outfits. Being a little girl, I would watch in awe when my sister and cousins proudly parade them in front of grandma.
I remember pulling my grandma’s sleeves gently and asking, ‘Popo (that means grandma in Chinese), can you knit for me too pwwease’?
And she replied, ‘Of course, I will knit for you when you need them for your white Christmas in college’.
I would smile and dream about that day. That was all I wanted for Christmas
When I was 13 years old, my grandma fell severely ill. I remember holding her hands saying things like, ‘You have to be there to watch me get into university, get married, popo you have not knitted for me yet’!
Shortly after, my grandma returned to the Lord. That was the most painful experience of my life. As a young teenager, I blamed God for robbing me of my joy and love.
Time slowly healed the pain, and when I was 19 I was getting ready to study law in England. Before I left, my mother passed me a present from my grandma. When I opened it, I found hats, scarves and sweaters knitted by grandma years ago! I went to into my room and cried so hard because she loved me so much that she would prepare so much in advance for me. Her act of love reminded me of the simple dreams I had as a little girl.
When I told this story during my fellowship in Hong Kong, my friend turned to me and said,
‘Wow, Rachel! It’s like God, preparing the treasures for you in heaven’!
And then our big sister in Christ came up to me and she prayed,
‘God wants me to tell u that He remembers your dreams, even the dreams that you have long forgotten’.
I am so amazed at how God used a story that happened years ago to remind me again that He was already planning for me way before I knew Him. As I put on my grandma -knitted blue hat this Christmas, I am preparing for my dreams to come true. After all these years, I finally learnt that all I want for Christmas is You, Lord. Amen.